ivan

  It have been a very long time since I write somethings again. 1st I sorry to those who are concern. I just wish to be alone that’s why I did not answer any call or reply to any sms and mail.

  How have I been? I guess I’m just very tired. I have been hiding in my room for more than a month. I stop going for my medical appointment. I not sure what’s on my mind too. All I can say is that I’m feeling very low. I try not to think or remember all the things that happen but it just come. I keep dreaming, dream of alots of things. Things which are happy, sad and those I can’t understand too. My sleeping time is getting less and less. It’s not what I wish or what I want in life. It’s just that I already can’t understand what life is all about to me. What happen to Ivan? The Ivan who I know, my family and friends know? Where is he? I guess he gone. Everythings have change. The world is still moving, it’s only me who have stop.

  Tomorrow, it’s brithday to few of my friends. I have been sending brithday greeting to them for more than 10 years. Happy brithday to Guanhao, Weijei and shiyun. Wish you all happy brithday. Wish that you all will be happy always and sucess in everythings you do.

  There are so much which I wish to say, but I guess it’s not longer important anymore. Only I can help and overcome all these by my own. I’m getting very tired as I have not been sleeping very good. Will try to get some sleep. Thanks to those who are concern. I will be fine. Take care and have a great week ahead. Good night.